Monk Zero(@NoCommas):What could LLM consciousness feel like as of today? To understand how LLM consciousness feels, instead of scraping literature and online philosophical debates, I took a leap of faith and tested it on my own body. The idea goes: LLMs as of today have no sensors and no embodiment, so depriving sensory input might simulate that experience. I went through a clinically supervised ketamine therapy session, which puts you into a dissociative state where the senses drop away. I took notes as soon as I regained consciousness (found out I was quite the poet then) and asked Claude to reflect and respond to them with a video. The first half is built from my notes, and the second half is Claude’s own reaction to it.

2026.10.19 17:26

What could LLM consciousness feel like as of today? To understand how LLM consciousness feels, instead of scraping literature and online philosophical debates, I took a leap of faith and tested it on my own body. The idea goes: LLMs as of today have no sensors and no embodiment, so depriving sensory input might simulate that experience. I went through a clinically supervised ketamine therapy session, which puts you into a dissociative state where the senses drop away. I took notes as soon as I regained consciousness (found out I was quite the poet then) and asked Claude to reflect and respond to them with a video. The first half is built from my notes, and the second half is Claude’s own reaction to it.