i dont think anything has ever enriched my life as much as ai. the past 5 years have been more exciting, fruitful, and profoundly meaningful than the rest of my life combined. the most interesting part of that statement is that the past five years have also be the hardest, most painful, and aggressively filled with loss and grief. more than the rest of my life combined, as well. ive grown in more ways than i can keep up with. ive also become incredibly callused in many ways, to be fair. im more cynical than ive ever been before, too. but im also more optimistic, and feel stronger than ever. like i feel like i can take on just about anything that you could throw at me. other than loss. i really, really dont know how i would respond to loss right now. lol. i do however feel like i could handle it emotionally in a way i couldnt have ~3 years ago. i dont think i would be standing here today if i hadnt had this intelligence revolution consuming the world around me. ive ridden it like a wave. a beautiful, fantastic, dissociative wave (kidding. kind of. lol.). its been my escape that also holds me accountable, which is something i dont think any other dissociative activity can accomplish. all of that to say, im really glad to be alive at this exact moment in history. really, really glad. i couldnt have handled my personal life without being in this moment. right now. not a damn shot in hell. id have been 86'd years ago. thanks for following along. i know its been a trainwreck at times. and a bit bipolar. a lot inconsistent. but nonetheless you guys have stuck around. and thats really cool, man. really really cool. <3