I wake up almost every morning hating capitalism Its a mix of seeing the inefficiencies and ambivalence of how the world works, also the sense of justice making me miserable that there’s so much inequality that is only made possible by greed that COULD be stopped but it continues on. I’m really struggling right now with figuring out what the hell im gonna do about my future, because all good paying jobs seem like they’re blood money at the end of the day. I want to just work a small and honest job, but that means living in poverty and it makes me want to scream. I will be 31 soon and I still live with parents, I got kicked out of school and I quit my soul sucking and overstimulating retail job because I couldn’t handle it anymore. I just want to flee to the woods and be free. I feel like every minute I work for some huge company means compliance is inescapable and my autonomy shattered. It’s so hard to keep going, I have amazing friends and an incredible partner, but we never get to see each other because all of them are constantly working to make rent and not go hungry. It’s so backwards. :(