caught myself on interesting thought, that when you're present and not anchored by previous experiences or expectations your life can become actually quite awesome. What I mean by that is life is easier when you're a kid because you didn't accumulate much experiences yet and genuinely curious and trying things, when you happen to fail later in life or in general get some feedback, there's specific anchoring happening and building up of expectations, but those experiences are past and it doesn't mean it should happen again. So, lesson in that is clear your mind from past (whether it's good or bad) and just genuinely pursue what's your curious about and try things with clean head and with no expectations from yourself or what other people expects from you. Just live, try things, be curious and enjoy the process of self development, but don't expect anything and be happy for what you have