Today would have been my Brother’s 35th birthday Over the last year and a half we just had a terrible relationship. I got bitter and held resentment towards him for a lot of things he probably wasn’t even aware of. Before things got bad between us he just sent me this last year, and he just said some stuff. Honestly probably the best talk or conversation we had in 10 years. You don’t realize how much it helps or benefits you, that someone who has known you your entire life sees who you are. Even when you don’t see it sometimes. It’s tough because these last 9-10 years it’s just been grind mode and you work these crazy hours, go to school, invest your time into your future and goals. And I got tunnel vision. I had to provide and focus on my son, then my wife and house bills just the future etc. Then you get to this point of like hey we did it, it was all worth it and the thought never hits you that some people won’t be there for it. I have very few regrets if any in life, but I’d give anything for just a hour with him again. Even if it was just sitting on smash bros on the GameCube for 30 minutes or watching some bullshit and hearing him yap the entire time. Miss you bro