Recently i noticed the general social media atmosphere related to China becomes much much more favorable to China (thanks to Rednote). I felt quite surreal as I still remember when trying to tell Europeans what the real China is, all the cyberbullies and mockeries I have received. And now, immediately I felt many people follow up to realise I told the truth before. But guys you are still late already. I have already heavily invested myself into China because I'm deeply convinced of its bright future after my ten years of experience with it. Im determined to enjoy a shared future with its prosperity so that my benefits will not get sunk with the descending West as a whole. In my eyes the problem of the west is deep-rooted beyond easy repair, and it will still take a long time for the western public to accordingly reform and improve. You can still join me to recieve the fresh and real China experience, and adopt accordingly to grasp its oppurtunities with me together. I have mostly quited posting political posts in both English and Chinese platforms because I have already completed my mission, as a girl, to send the voices to both societies. I recieved all kinds of feedbacks from both sides that both help and harm me. Looking back, I cannot help to feel I may have gone too far, too ahead, and too alone, which causes me to decouple from the public. Thus I recently shifted to be an influencer that dedicated to "touch" the public, and be part of a community seeks for solidarity and mutual understanding. My recent posts in social media enjoy more attention and appreiciation than before, meaning my life in social media have a lot more to be discovered and expanded. I will disipline myself in future to restrict voicing anything negative about any matters. It is not because I'm not wise enough to criticize the ugliness and dirts, but on the other hand I found myself is more needed elsewhere.