I'd say at the very beginning of retirement you wanna be everything and you're willing to be, you love traveling around the world to meet friends and see what kind of lives people live in. and soon, you get frustrated and bored to live in an lifestyle that people thought a FIREd guy would be. you thought you're going up but you're not at the ground and it is no upside or downside at all. that's the problem. someday you'll figure out your problem is exactly the result that you got out of the Matrix. you're like trueman heading out of his little island, you've got no audience and it still a long way to go. there's no meaning but willingness for life we choosed, there's no up and down, no left or right. the fate we created, the failures we accept it, all that happened beyond our little island made our stories. and in case you don't see me, enjoy everything you're going to meet and have good days.