The boredom is painful at times. No matter what I do, listen to or watch. It's never enough to get whatever my brain needs - but I don't even know what that would be. This heat doesn't help; the last two days were a bit cooler but now the temperatures are back to over 30°C and it won't get much lower according to the weather report. I sweat a lot and can't tolerate heat very well, which leads to me being overstimulated but mentally understimulated at the same time. Some people say to "sit with the boredom" but it genuinely makes me want to peel my face off. It's like I'm trapped in my own body and mind. I want to do things and have fun but I can't, it feels like I have to walk through chewing gum. Like trying to run in a dream. Sometimes I do five things at once because the boredom hurts too much but even that doesn't soothe anything. Focusing on just one thing is too much and not enough at the same time.