The urge to gamble right now is so fucking intense that my body is literally shaking as I watch the clock tick closer to game time If I were still gambling, I’d probably go all in on the Miami Heat They’re 0-4 and I’ve already lost 3 bets on them, yet my brain keeps convincing me they’re due for a win These withdrawals are fucking insane

Even though I relapsed and won, I'm genuinely disappointed in myself I couldn't even make it 2 days without gambling Something needs to change because clearly willpower alone isn't enough I need to stop following sports, spend less time online and distance myself from everything that triggers the urge to gamble I can't keep living like this

I’m so fucking glad I didn’t give in to my urges because the Pistons just lost But now I’m convinced the Blazers are gonna smoke the Lakers I’m like 1-7 on NBA predictions so far and somehow my brain keeps telling me I’m due for a win The urge to gamble is genuinely driving me insane

This gambling addiction is no joke I'm only on day 2 without gambling and every atom in my body and every voice in my head is screaming at me to go all in on the Pistons because the Knicks fucking suck

Maybe it’s time I use my platform to discourage gambling instead of promoting it Should I keep sharing my thoughts, struggles, and urges as I try to quit? Hopefully, documenting my journey could help others battling the same addiction and encourage them to quit alongside me

The real story behind my robot and how it became my online identity I've actually explained this before, but I realize a lot of people probably missed it, so I figured I'd share the full story once and for all My graphic designer is from Indonesia, and he's actually the guy who's been drawing my robot all these years. We've been working together since my early crypto days. Super chill dude who's been with me for years At some point, I wanted to help him build something of his own because realistically, I knew I wouldn't always have an endless amount of work for him He told me he wanted to open a tobacco shop because smoking is extremely common where he's from, and he believed it could provide him with a stable future I was hesitant at first because obviously I'm not a fan of the health consequences of smoking, but I also understood that this was how he wanted to make a living Ultimately, I decided to help him get the business off the ground We ended up using my robot as the branding for his shop, and somewhere along the way, it became my online persona too So no, I'm not actually an Indonesian tobacco shop owner. I just helped a friend start a business, and we've been running with the robot ever since I never imagined something so simple would become such a big part of my online identity, let alone turn into years of lore and speculation Funny how things work out sometimes

I genuinely feel like I'm living two completely different lives Online I know people I never would've imagined having access to, but the moment I log off I'm just a regular civilian Two completely different worlds and two completely different versions of me