Getting accepted into a grant or a plus-up on your project and so on., can ultimately hinge on your attidue.
I have been told 'NO' a great many times in my life.
I had to re-do airborne school for a tiny mistake when I was young. But I owned it . . . and I graduated from it and it was no harm to me and others.
So . . . thinking these things like not getting a vault plussed up needs perspective.
Are you going to jump or bail?
All your evaluators want to know is if you can complete all the steps.
Stop caring about your feelings and care more about your ability to perform.
Jump out of the plane . . . and let the wind rip through your hair.