I have been with this man for six years. Six whole years of waiting, hoping and believing that one day, our story would end at the altar. I’m 39, and I’ll be turning 40 this December. He lives in uk , He comes around once in a while. Whenever he comes, he buys me beautiful things, makes me feel special and reminds me of why I fell in love with him. Three days ago he came with so many gifts. Among them was this little strawberry bar. I picked it up and read the words written on it: WILL YOU BERRY ME? I smiled but deep down, something happened to me. Could this be his way of proposing? Is he finally ready to marry me? Or am I reading meaning into something that means absolutely nothing? You see, this man got engaged to me. That engagement made me turn down other suitors. Men who genuinely wanted to marry me came and went because I believed I already had my husband. But six years later, I am still waiting. And the sadd part? I have discovered that he is cheatingg on me with another woman there in uk . Whenever I bring up marriage, his response is that he is not ready. Not ready? After six years? At 39? Since morning, I have been lost in my thoughts. I keep staring at this little wrapper and wondering what is going on in his mind. Does he love me? Does he see a future with me? Is he buying me gifts to keep me comfortable while he builds a future with someone else? I don’t know. All I know is that December is approaching, and I will be 40. I never imagined that at this stage of my life, I would still be begging for clarity from a man who has had six years to decide whether he wants to me . Am I wasting my time, or should I keep believing that this man will eventually marry me? Because honestly, I’m tired of waiting, but I’m even more afraid of starting all over again.